SUMMER ANXIETY
The summer has began. The warm and sunny days. The flowers that are starting to bloom. The summer anxiety that has started.
The off and on again medications has began again. The on going doctor appointments. The on going speech therapy appointments.
How am I dealing with this speech therapy thing?
I'm sucking it up and doing it but I'm not too happy about it. I think thats a fair thing to say. However, in life there are things that we need to do but don't always want too.
The Sunday morning anxiety going to church. The large crowds. Thankfully, Amy is always there to help out. To be my rock. To help me get through the hour in a half service. To help me get through communion.
I never feel so badly in my life when I can't hold those cups to celebrate Jesus dying on the cross for my sins.
I want to so badly but my muscles have different plans. They say no way not today Chels.
I know part of that is the Devil working.
I know in my heart that Jesus understands and likes the fact that I want too.
Goals in life.
Thanks so much dystonia!
I'm thankful for friends who accept me as is.
I'm thankful for those days where I can't fully express the way I feel but have friends that already know.
Friends that take as much stress as possible away.
Dystonia hates anxiety.
The summer anxiety of no roommate this summer has set in. No one to help out. No one to talk too when dystonia and anxiety sets in hard.
I'm thankful for a God who understands...even when others do not.
I'm thankful for a little five year old who has my heart and I get to spend the summer with her.
I'm glad that the little one accepts me for me.
I'm glad that she understands more then most adults.
How I love her.
I have five more days until Lauren comes up! I'm getting excited that for a couple days I won't be the only one in Muncie with Dystonia my age. For a couple days I can talk freely and she will just get it. No explaining.
I'm glad that I won't be the only one in church this next Sunday whose heads shake. Oh that kills me. Why does my head have to shake?! Again. Thanks Dystonia.
The summer grocery store shopping where it becomes a goal if I make it through my list and get out within minutes.
I'm looking forward to voluteering this summer and learning. I have a feeling that Jesus will teach me some lessons that I may need but may not be ready for. I'm thankful for Mayor Tyler who is excited for me to help out here this summer! That makes my heart happy!
The summer of the doors opening and the doors closing for a brain stimulator.
This maybe the summer of doors closing.
This also maybe the summer of the doors opening.
